#ThrowbackThursday

So I asked my Bikini Bootcampers, for#ThrowbackThursdsy, to think back to a time where they FELT their best and if they had a pic post it. Not LOOK their best, feel their best!
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I decided to do this as well.
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This pic on the left was me my junior year of high school when I had worked my ass off all summer, running, paying attention to what I was eating, but wasn’t “dieting”. Just doing what I thought was right. I wasn’t even doing it for appearance reasons, I was doing it for sports. Getting in better shape and challenging myself.
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Initially I felt better, stronger, then, quickly the words of those around me started getting to me. “She’s anorexic” “you’re too skinny” “you’re too thin” “are you even eating?”
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For those who know my personal binge eating story, you know where this goes. I decided to put on a few pounds to “appease” others. I valued their opinion way too damn much, but I was 17 for crying out loud! It’s what we did at that age! Tried to fit in!
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I slowly developed a binge eating habit (middle pic is less than a year after that first one) that lasted well into my college days and a couple years after. It was a viscous cycle. Binge, extreme diet, binge, diet…”
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A couple years ago I was DEEP into it. In a bad relationship and mentally defeated. I was ready to give up. On life. I sat in my bathroom floor and contemplated all the ways I could end the pain. Pills? That seemed like the easiest way to go…
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Something happened in that moment as I was sitting and sobbing…that I will never be able to explain. Something, someone, some being, forced me to lift myself up off the floor and forced me to look on the mirror at myself. It was a moment I will never forget. It was the moment where it felt like a million tons of weight had been lifted off my shoulders. FINALLY!
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Like someone was there to show me I was here on this earth for a reason. That everything in the past was gone. Done. The new me was FREE to be who I was MEANT to be.
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I decided that night to work on ME! From the inside out. My perception was so skewed for so long that it took hard work and tons of patience!
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Was it easy? Hell no! I screwed up plenty of times and had binge relapses along the way, but they started getting fewer and far between. I had been binge free for awhile and had a relapse last spring, after becoming obsessed with counting macros and calories and going through some medical issues (something I will talk about at some point – not quite ready yet) and I went to Jason in tears.
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I felt so defeated and weak. I let my emotions control my habits and took responsibility that I had the choice to binge or not binge. I had to remember that moving forward.
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So, miraculously, the 21 Day Fix was released right around my big relapse and I dove in. I honestly didn’t think it would help me at all. I mean really, these little containers could help me with my binge eating and portion control, while allowing me to still have a treat for myself? And I’ll get amazing results? YA right!
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Well, even though I doubted it, I had nothing to lose.
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After 21 days I felt my BEST!!!! Ever!!!! I was binge free again, new how to portion control for myself without gong OCD over counting macros and assigning numbers to everything going in my mouth. Finally, it made sense. I had to make a change that could become a LIFESTYLE! Something I could stick with without feeling like I needed to deprive myself! I was still able to have a treat here and there and learn to use food as fuel for my day and my workouts instead of for pleasure or comfort.
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-I focused on progress and actions instead of results!
– I STOPPED weighing myself obsessively!
– I started feeling more confident in myself because I was consistently doing the actions to get the results!
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So, that last pic is when I had completed PiYo (another amazing program) and built strength and flexibility! I felt strong mentally and physically! That’s when I felt my BEST! I had also just been contacted by Beachbody to let me know I had been one of the people chosen for possibly being in the 21 Day Fix infomercial! I didn’t make it past the last round (whomp, whomp) — but I didn’t care! I felt amazing and that’s all that mattered!
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I’m sharing this to show you, my road wasn’t easy. I didn’t always have confidence in myself and I wasn’t always fit and happy!
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If you’re ready to make some changes and let ME be the person to pick you up off the floor. I’m here for you!
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My current Bikini Bootcamp will end Sunday and I am looking for 20! Yes, 20, NEW LADIES to join me for 30 days of learning what you need for YOUR body, including meal plans and a specific workout program as well as helping you with your confidence! If you would like to be considered, please fill out this short form:http://bit.ly/1JEM7P3

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Author: Brooke

I'm a lover of life, fitness, food and sharing my story with others! I love helping others smash goals and gain confidence, while creating a life they love!

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